7/10/2023 0 Comments Look deeper![]() I would not be able to trust them with this part of me. I quickly dismissed the thought because I knew it would never happen. I imagined myself going to them in this moment, how that would play out. I started thinking about the people I’m currently surrounded by (I live with family). That morning was no exception, and I started rubbing my thighs. So many thoughts were running through my head, mostly revolving around my desire for comfort and its lack of availability.Īnd then, as I’ve often had to do, I started to try to comfort myself.įor a while now, I’ve been instinctively rubbing the sides of my thighs or my chest whenever I’m crying really heavily. I thought about the lack of this that I’ve had in my life and I felt a deep sense of longing and sadness that made me break down and cry. That I could be seen, truly seen, and it would be okay. That I could just go to someone and be loved and comforted with no questions asked, no judgments. This made me feel somewhat hopeless and I found myself wishing that finding comfort was easier. But like the music, those videos weren’t working either. I played a couple of videos I have saved, that I go back to in moments like the one I was having at the time. They offer words of encouragement and sometimes those words really speak to me. There are a few creators on tiktok/Instagram whose content I find comforting. This made me even more sad.Īfter that I turned to social media. Sometimes if the ballads don’t work, I listen to sad songs (which I also have playlists for), but found those weren’t working either. I was going to listen to my playlist of ballads (which is my go to when I’m sad) but I found they weren’t comforting the way they usually are. Also music is my safe place, where I can feel and not be afraid. They comfort me because I know that love - true, unselfish love - is one of the purest emotions on this Earth (I’m a sap, I’m aware, mind ya business □). Often times I turn to music, usually ballads, because they’re soft and about someone loving another. I wanted comfort but had no idea where to get it. Had no clue why and was just like □ here we go lol. I just know it was very cathartic and unlike anything I’ve experienced before. Not sure how to start with describing this. Moodgym, a place to learn cognitive behaviour therapy skillsįor preventing and coping with depressionĪ fairly active AvPD forum Subreddits of interest PLEASE check this out if you feel at risk.ħ cups of tea, a place where you can rant, vent, or just talk with random trained listenersĪvoidant Coyote, a Tumblr about and for people with AvPD Suicide hotline by state (US) and by country. The users of this sub cannot accurately diagnose you with AvPD and it is best to talk to a trained professional for a diagnosis. Do not ask for an AvPD diagnosis for either you or someone you may know. Do not encourage negative behaviors, like self harm or suicide. To casually chat, click any of the following:. The Telegram group has been created, here's the invitation link: We would love for you to visit the chat room.Įveryone is welcome, you don't need to have something specific to say and chat is casual. ![]() It's a no pressure safe environment where you can feel free to chat or just lurk. This is a Discord for the AvPD community. Some ways to treat AvPD/Anxiety Join the AvPD Discord ![]() About Avoidant Personality Disorder (AvPD)ĭifference Between AvPD and social anxiety Treatment ![]()
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